So, first of all, my "crush" from one of my past posts is over, I guess. I mean, I still feel some weirdness but it's more awkwardness than that thing I had (that was basically staring at him, plus I don't stare anymore) and also, I just feel friendship for him.

But... I have this thing about his friend and also my friend. I always though that he was nice and all, and pretty attractive but I never felt that interest I had on my ex-crush. Since I met them, I though that he was really cool and cute and that he was a great candidate to a boyfriend. I am their friend and we talk often, basically everyday (schoolday). I don't feel what I felt about th ex-crush but it's really weird.

So, he is really cute and I feel the need to just fucking hug him. He's all smiley and so innocent, like seriously, he is so pure and I catch myself wanting to corrupt him. This is pretty embarassing but he is the only (real) person I can... imagine having sex? Not like with myself... Actually, kind of with myself. I can't stop but wonder how he, a pure and innocent human being, will do it.

Anyway, I think he likes this girl that I admire a lot (let's say tha she is what I would want to be, she's more social and pretty and all) and I really ship them but I can't help but feel this disapointment (?). Weird, I know. One friend of mine, a guy btw, said that maybe I liked him but it's weird to think that.