I just made sixteen years. Yay, Happy Birthday to me.

This anniversary was kind of... disapointing, I don't know if it was because I had high expectations or something. I wanted to have something special, something really really special. But I feel so empty right now. There's a hole in my heart and I can't heal it as I normally do. I feel so helpless and so bad.

I'm always so happy about most of things and I always have a plan and all. But this year I've been feeling horrible. I can't motivate myself. I don't feel connected to other people at all. I'm so scared of not being able to connect ith people. I don't want them to leave me behind.

I had a little party with my friends, we watched a movie at my house. They are so nice but why I feel so apart?